No mood...
Been a long time since I actually been blogging....It's just that my best friend has left for China and I do feel the loss from it all. A treasured friend who has been a wonderful and exciting chapter in my life. Hehe...hope to see you more often in time to come! But that is for life to decide. Thanks anyway for calling me Mr. MCP before you left though it wasnt you who dialled the number...hahaha...Abe did! But no matter what I appreciate the gesture.
Went down to have a A-level meet-up with old friends at Mid Valley last Saturday. We were supposed to go watch "Hitch" at 11 am and so I as usual wanting to be punctual took the 9 am bus to Mid Valley arriving there at 10 am but there was no one by 10.30 and I was getting worried. Come on we have not even bought the tickets yet and no one was there. Called Mr. MCP and he said that Ignatius(the so called organizer) decided to change it to 1.30 pm show and I was about to scream my lungs out but it was a public area so TOO BAD for me.....Anyway so there I was about to order myself some breakfast when Mr. MCP smses and asks me to go check out of anyone has arrived. I had to embarassingly cancel my order and then walk to the cinema again. Stupid as usual...no one was there so I decided ok la...eat in McD la since it is in front of the cinema thus making me able to observe any new comers.
Haha true to itself...everyone arrived from noon onwards. Good thing I had my newspaper if not I would be bored to death. Anyway the egg burger was kinda dull since I'm vegetarian so that is the only burger that I could have...hahahaha. My fault anyway. Can't believe Mr. MCP only arrived 5 minutes before the movie started and I had to defend him to all the people who were complaining on such guy that was always late....he sms saying he was on his way at 11 am but still has not arrived till 1.20 pm....it makes you wonder don't it?
Anyway 'Hitch' is a excellent movie...it really depicts real life and how men can always manipulate a way so that a woman will fall for him..no matter what...a man can always make a woman fall for him if she doesnt have another in her life la that is....
Got forced into another 2 dj sessions by the lecturer...teruk case la...but we have to do it ....for the 5% we need to get for participation marks in journalism. I did a really excellent essay but even though I got favourable mention I was not happy with the marks cause it was not one of the highest...other people got higher but come on...I'm kiasu and I admit it....I need to be the best in the class that's why I am so stressed about my assignments all the time if you asked me...cuz I am planning to get a scholarship next semester...I need it....cause I'm such an expensive daughter...my poor pooor poooor dad....
Stole my lecturer's hp!
YES I DID...by accident anyway. I was so irritated by the dj session as the dj session did not work out....even on the next day...there was so so so many clashes between people who wanted to do it at the same time and the lecturer Mr. Chee was so blur to not have settled out his scheduling...so I decided to take things in hand by being his P.A. for the day and settle everything with him....that way at least the next day which is Tues (22nd March) I could finally do my dj session. Then he suddenly said to me...Mr. Chee I mean...said that there was a free spot from noon till 1 pm so we had to dj spontaneously & I was so nervous. My partner for the dj session was flipping through the newspaper....which was another lecturer's newspaper Mr. Veejay and she was holding his handphone as it was on top of the newspaper. I thought it was hers and took it from her telling her that I would keep it for her in my bag. She just nodded!
So it was time for our dj session....we went in and started the roll...but after 10 mins..Mr. Veejay came in claiming he lost his handphone...I knew by then that something is amiss so I took out the hp in my bag and asked my partner if it was hers....she looked at me surprised and then I KNEW....OPPPSSSS....I stole his handphone....accidentally!!! Is that even possible???? Anyway I returned it and he forgave me...I think. Apparently....my partner heard that I said "I'm putting my hp in my bag" and she was wondering why I was telling her this things. Life justs gets weird!
I havent been blogging much lately as you noticed. I had a lot of things on my mind...my best friend is moving to China...earlier than expected. And I'm so stressed bout my studies....everything is going wild. My Christmas and birthday wish list this year and many years to come to my best friend is..
1. Promise me that you will do your best to keep in contact with me...just keep in contact k...no matter how busy u r
2. Promise me that you will call me if we are in the same country and this i mean within the day that u arrive....don't wait till u contact everyone at the same time...i think considering we are more than normal friends....close friends or watever u wanna call it can i say that i deserve a bit of special treatment...
3. Remember our friendship and value it for what it is and what it has become....its not everyday you find a great friend....
4. Please please try to not break all the promises that you have made .....don't make sorry a word you have to say all the time....Please just keep your promises if you cant then don't make them....
That's all I ask...but I don't mind presents too...akakakka....jk jk.... take care!
Bleeding non-stop...
I know the title itself sounds scary but you know what...it's true. I feel down this morning cause I was late for my dj session in uni. I fell on the steps at 9 am and not its already 1 pm and I'm still bleeding from the wound. And the blood is not thick like normal blood it actually looks watery. Gosh...imagine a tap of blood flowing from me. I don't even know the wound is deep or not. All I am contemplating now is whether to go see a doctor. I might not be consuming enough iron to allow blood clotting....oh man....I'm so freaked out now....don't know what is happening to my body!
Had a blast from the past when 2 real close friends called me. It has been a long time since I last heard from them but I felt so loved knowing the still cared. The have always been the support I needed and have been there for me through thick and thin. Only them could understand how I feel like an outcast sometimes in KK when I feel too matured for my age. Its a real long story and I don't really feel in the mood to tell is since I'm so woozie from the loss of blood. Please God make the blood stop flowing......
To call or not to call...that is the question!
I finally decided to take control of the situation and not wait for a KK friend to call. So, ok I though how long am I going to wait anyway for things to happen the way I want it to so I thought that it was better to do works towards making it go that way. So I called him...so what right? Yeah I know it sounds kind of desperate but....life is short!!!
Apparently he was tied up with a situation. A few days ago, as he was cruising along in his friend's car, he & his friend got into an accident. They banged down a ox..gosh how could that have happened? I was laughing my head off when he told me & I remembered saying " Kerbau begitu besar pun tak nampak!" (*translation* ~ such a big ox also u could not spot) . Now that is total sad case-ness man! Whichever way it was I am glad that my friend was safe though the windshield did break and the driver was cut in the eye. Hope he is ok though! But for now he is fine and kicking...
I do agree with Fiona that its irritating when
- When people in shops follow you around like a dog as if you are going to shoplift....does this people not know that the bet target of customers are the young people. Sad case!
- When they say they will call but never do....stupid la....do not make a promise you do not intend to keep...that is the best policy to go about...the worst sin is to give people false hope...hahahah..
- Horrible rude waitresses....cant believe they think that just cause they had a bad day means that I should too right?
Just for fun...curious to know!!!
My Karma Reading
Chapter 1: Nodes of the Moon (Your Karmic Doorways)
North Node of the Moon in Taurus
You have gone through extreme, sometimes violent, transformations in prior lives, Erin. This has left you with a feeling of being off balance, each crisis pulling the rug out from under you.
In a past life (or number of past lives), you have abused your talents and personal powers to the detriment of those around you. This may have the effect of finding many people who express a violent dislike for you without any visible reason. They will appear whenever you allow your ego to rule your desires.
There are possible lifetimes spent as a revolutionary and most people with this placement have experienced the forces of witchcraft. Other possible past lifetimes were as detective, spy, researcher or alchemist.
My Seductive Style : Natural ...konon lar????i dun think so lor...then y single now??? wat u think??
| Your Seduction Style: The Natural |
 You don't really try to seduce people... it just seems to happen.Fun loving and free spirited, you bring out the inner child in people.You are spontaneous, sincere, and unpretentious - a hard combo to find!People drop their guard around you, and find themselves falling fast. |
What Is Your Seduction Style?
Yummy Choc Coated Strawberries
Hehe...went to KLCC after class with a real wonderful and sweet friend...Aree...I have mentioned her before right? So sweet of her to bring me on an outing when I was feeling kinda low after my fight with this guy friend from KK. He still has not contacted me after that Thursday fight and I was beginning to feel restless...
Here came my saviour with a beautiful soul and sweet heart to bring me to dine at Chocz with Vegetarian Quiche and also 10 pieces of chocoloate coated strawberries. I deliberately felt 10 kgs heavier after that scrumptious meal. My gosh...you guys must go there to try the food. Which reminds me I must take Mr. MCP when he comes back from China...yum yum!!!
| Your Brain is 60.00% Female, 40.00% Male |
Your brain is a healthy mix of male and female
You are both sensitive and savvy
Rational and reasonable, you tend to keep level headed
But you also tend to wear your heart on your sleeve |
What Gender Is Your Brain?
| You Are a Dare Devil |
For you, life is one big dare.
And you're all in for any adventure.
Others find you exciting, inspiring, and a bit intimidating.
You're biggest challenge at this point is trying to top yourself! |
To die for a lover???
Yesterday I was updating a friend online who doesn't have access to my blog about the new changes in my life. He was so shocked by the many changes and so he asked me the infamous question..."Did you meet someone (meaning a guy la in this case...I'm not lesbian k) ???" . And I was so surprised because I never had that thought in mind. Why is it that everytime we change people think its because of a man or for a guy's case because of a woman? It's just a choice in life...how discriminating can people get....?? I finally decided on my own that its time i took things into my own hands. No more slacking about...what if I was to die tomorrow did I make the best out of today the kind of attitude...no regrets cause it slows down the momentum of how you are able to live life......true?
Experiencing the NEW things of life...
Yes I decided it's time I stopped putting myself at the back row of everything and just plunge myself into a world of trying something new. So this week was an effective one when it came to this mission.
ON TUESDAY....
I decided to audition for the "M! The Opera" musical, the first pioneering opera that features the modern & the traditional and the Western & the Asia. I was so impressed by the lady who came to audition us....Saiyidah, the co-director of it. Can you imagine that if I did ever got chosen I would have costumes made by Zang Toi. Wouldn't that be so glamourous?? *sigh*
Anyway I arrived there earlier then as appointed at around 9.50 am. I was sitting there waiting and no one was there. Come on la...they tell us to be punctual yet they themselves "the Organisers" are not even there. First there was 2 of us girls wating there and I was thinking " Oh my...good chance for me!" so I wished. The girls started piling up in numbers till about 15 people with many joining us when we did start...eventually. Miss Saiyidah arrive promptly at 10.30 am and realised that we were freezing our asses off in that room. She asked us to strip off our heels and run around the uni's "Hall of Fame" until she says stop. Can you imgaine a bunch of girls in mini skirts and tube tops running around a room? So hilarious and not appropriate. She made us run and run and run then turn directions and run & run again. Suddenly she went stop...and our momentum was still there that we almost banged into each other.
She then got us to stand in a circle and do some games. U know the elephant, pirate, coconut game where when pointed at u and the people beside you have to complete a picture of a elephant, pirate or a coconut tree. Anyway, we had to concentrate on doing it right...IN RHYTHM. Talk about excruciating!!! Then she got us to each sing a jazz tune....dum de dum dum...and there was no chance for you to be shy. She said if you want to be shy then don't even think of joining. This really pushed me to go over the self-hatred barrier and do my best. I got the first 2 few tunes out cool & kinda nice but the last part of ending I went out of pitch she gave me a weird look that I knew I had no more hope here.
Next she got each of us to sing a verse/song ALONE in front of everyone ON THE STAGE...(to my horror)....I sang the "10 things I hate about you" OST and she was smiling so sweetly at me that I had so much hope only to be dissapointed a few minutes later when she read out the finalist names. The needed 2 more altos and 1 more tenor....apparently I was not a choice but I loved the experience of it. Now I know how it feels like to audition for any parts in a play. This is a benchmark for many more........
ON WEDNESDAY....
I went for my first Campus Friends activities....we were doing a "Battle of the Sexes" fear factor style...and man was fear a factor for most of the people there. So they played...
Game 1 : Known or Unknown
U either have to stick your hand into a chosen box and guess what was inside (2 points) or you could choose to stick your hand into a large box of crickets for one minute to remove 5 coins at the bottom (5 points). The guys went first and they were so chicken they went for the "unknown" choosing a box and got it right as it was only a gummy sweet...so lame right. Next, it was the girls turn and they all cheered me on to go up first. So I took the dare and shoved my hand into the bowl of crickets to the dismay of many of the gals & also guys there. What they did not know is my dad goes fishing and I have played with worse things like worms that bite and also crickets too....a common bait for fishing too. I got it and the girls were leading...COOL eh? My good friend Sweets took the challenge too as I assured her it was nothing. And many more girls took the challenge. Was I a good example?? I hope so. There was this guy who chose the "unknown" and got a box with a FROG in it. You could imagine that sissy boy screaming his lungs off. But no matter what the game ended with a tie.
Don't those bugs look so yummy!
Game 2 : Answering questions regarding the opposite sex.
Truthfully I sucked bad at this game. The only thing I could answer was the I.R. 2.5 I.E.E.E. 256 ram which was a Dell computer and also the last question which I forgot what it is. But the guys could really answer things regarding girls like which areas that a base coat is required( the nails, for your info if you didn't know) and what is a cross between a tube top and a tank top....a tanktini....and what does the pink rose represent.....admiration.... => this actually shows how much effort men actually put into chasing girls!
DAMN...we tied the score again with them....
Game 3 : Knowing the opposite sex's wants
This part was where we glowed. We had to answer question bout what we want in a men and what gestures we would like to indicate we were interest blah blah blah. We understood the men so well we guessed their answers 8 out of 12. They only for 5 out of 12. And the guys were raving about how men express themselves more to women so that we could understand them better & thus win. I think its because men think women are too complicated that the do not notice that we just enjoy the simplest things in life. For instance, there was this question regarding what kind of things girls would like most to receive....
The MEN put 1) shopping together 2) small gifts 3)hanging out together
We on the other hand put 1) flowers ....which they were so stupid not to know 2 ) long walks on the beach
but they did get no. 3 right....ahhahahah
Whichever way it was.....life is good and exciting then & it proves that....FEAR IS NOT A FACTOR FOR ME!!!!!
Tears streaming down my face
When we tought we had lots of people that care about you, things will always come crashing down on you. Yesterday was a day to prove who was my real friends and who was not. There I was about to fix up my D.I.Y. cupboards when I realised that I did not have any screwdrivers. So I went over to a friend's place to get them from him. He was there with a few friends doing a few stuff that was not really that important. I thought I could assemble the cupboards on my own. I did the easier one in a jiffy but then when it came to the bigger wan... I was just lost as there was no instructions. Stupid right??? So only 2 girls helped me...Debbie and Shinki...my old housemates. My new housemates just stood there and laughed. What kind of people is that? Do they not know a thing about being nice to other people. I called my friend who lent my the screwdrivers to help me...but he was apparently suddenly "busy". Wow...what can I do but leave it unfinished.
Well, now we know that only friends that will prevail is the ones that are there for you when you need them. I regretted moving out even though it is cheaper. My new housemates are horrible when it comes to hygiene. I thought I was messy they are down-right dirty man. The kitchen floor is sticky and the bathroom has a real bad odour to it with many black marks on the floor. My room is the cleanest of them all....weird right??? Coming from a girl who is known for being messy.
I miss Mr. MCP so much. When I couldn't finish fixing the cupboard I actually picked up the phone about to call him then I realised that it is not possible to have him here to help. Guess I depended too much on him when things got bad. He gave me good advice and he was such a great help at time. Whichever way...Mr. MCP if I do not get it up by the time you arrive back in KL it becomes your responsibility to help me k??
Oh Mr. Mystery from the internet SMS center messaged me again on Saturday night. He said " I'm so glad Saturday is here. It's time to party and chill and have a good time. We shall meet up ok?" Then now I know that he is sending the sms to the wrong person. His poor gf must be waiting for his sms-es but they just never seem to arrive. Hope he gets my sms-es that keeps on telling him he got the wrong person.
Can someone help me answer this pondering question that keeps on playing in my head?
Why do men find it soooooo difficult to express what they feel and tell a person how wonderful she/he is??? Why can't men just have a definition for each relationship than just the roles of girlfriends and friends??? Is there nothing more like close friends and best friends and soul mates?
AND
Is it possible to have met "the ONE" that you believe you would marry at an early age?? even before the right time of marriage? Is it possible to realise that there is no one more perfect for you then the one you love now? Is it possible to love someone so deep that there is no turning back?
Curiosity Killed the Cat!
My best friend, Mr. MCP has boarded the plane this morning and left little old me behind in Malaysia while he progresses to China...a land of many possibilities. Truthfully, I already miss him and it has been like only 24 hours.
Classes finished early so I decided to go "tread" our eyebrows with a few friends namely Sweets (her new nickname cuz they thought her name was too bloody long to remember..jk), and cute Aree and also the infamous Fiona of my blog. From Cyberjaya all the way down to Bangsaw we drove just to get a few little hairs plucked from the face by strangers. Now we know why women are so confusing!
We then decided to go to Mid Valley Megamall to have dinner at Chillis. We were stuffing our faces with the tortilla chips and salsa as we were so hungry from our expedition. We sat and chatted and laughed our heads of at each other. Aree and Sweets were so excited to be at Chilis that they were staring at every waiter that comes by with a plate praying that it is their order...that got me and Fiona bursting out laughing even more hysterically. Those two were so cute....sharing food and feeding each other. There was so much love in our friendly outing that all our sad problems were forgotten in an instant.
I was brought back to reality when Aree was driving me home and I got a sms that was so romantic. It went like this :
Dear, I really missed you a lot. I know it is impossible but I would like us to be together as you said we would. What are you doing now? I need u!
My heart melted at that msg but I did not know who it was from. It came from an internet SMS center that allows the person to send SMS-es for free. Sadly I accidentally deleted it after a few hours while I was still pondering on who would send it. I called a few friends to ask if it was from them...a prank ...but all denied it. I thought it was from my darling chocolate Hersley but he too said he did not send one. Now I am so sad to know that no one sent it...and I can't trace who is this person that sent it and what is it that I said bout "us" that was so intruiging. DAMN! Why no one I know ever sends me this kind of romantic things?
But to make things better, Aree did a very sweet gesture of giving me a citrine crystal that symbolizes better success in everything. Hope all goes well...thanks a lot girl. It meant a lot to know someone wants the best for me.......
Box Office "Worst Day"
Today was a horrible day in a bad day itself. Ok…it started off horribly with me waking up from a vivid dream of me being bitten by many sharks and left to die. No one cared bout me…they would just walk by with a look of disgust like they “Why-are-you-dirtying-the-floor?-Stupid-girl-if-you-want-to-die-go-die-somewhere-else” kind of look. And that was horror to the maximum for a dream as you can already see.
Then it got progressively worse when my housemates decided to wake up early and I was just too crazy to listen to my housemate’s latest love story to go back to sleep. So there I was sleep deprived and worried about the new furniture I bought that was to arrive before noon. I had to dress and get to school and also shove my furniture into my house in time to arrive at school decent and alive. The day had to get more wonderful with the company not even sending me my furniture. I had to find a last minute “way out” to help me be there to receive the furniture and they had the nerve not to call me. By 7 pm when all the shops is supposed to be close, those people still have not called yet. Talk about inefficient people! Due to that I couldn’t move in into my new house as planned….ARGH! To top it off I had no credit at all in my phone so I couldn’t call them to let them have a piece of my mind.
Classes did not go so well. In my Public Relations class, I could hardly keep awake even though the lecturer was the most interesting of them all. The guy sitting next to me was such a bore…he answered all my attempts of conversation with either a grunt or an “uhuh”. So ANNOYING man! Due to my long non stop string of classes from 1 pm to 7 pm I couldn’t meet up with my best friend, Fiona for my long awaited chat to update her on my life and she update me on her interesting life. Gosh you should listen to the stories she tells you…she is a woman who lives on the edge. In my Journalism class, the head of the faculty interrupted Mr. Chee (THE LECTURER) in the middle of his class to get information from the students regarding his teachings. Then, the established daughter of Mr. Lim Kok Wing stood up to reprimand her (the Head of the Faculty) that it is rude to interrupt a lecturer’s class to “bitch” bout him while he waits outside patiently. So, here the class went in chaos discussing who was right and who was not. I did not know what got into me but I suddenly spoke up putting a stop to the conversations. I asked if they wanted to keep him as the lecturer or not. If you do, put up your hands. The majority won for this and the case was closed. But even after that, I still couldn’t believe that little timid me did that. I still worry now about what the Head of Faculty and also the other students think about my actions. Was I putting down her authority by taking charge of the situation? Was I stepping over my line as a student by representing myself to speak up as so? Please give me your ideas on this!
The night ended with me acting a little drunk. I did not drink a drop of alcohol but I was acting like a drunkard. Was this a after-effect of being vegetarian? I seems that I have to spend more money to buy Vitamin E supplement for a balanced diet when one becomes vegetarian. I don’t know the importance of it so I will research on it before I actually buy it. It’s there a vegetarian source for Vitamin E in vegetables or fruits???
I was dead tired so I decided to take a nap. But it was interrupted with a call from a close friend of mine(I know you know who you are and I am not saying I did not like the interruption but it was just a figure of speech. I was so glad to hear from you especially when I did not have credit to contact you..sorry dear!) who wanted to break up with her bf that she really loves. Advising her was kind of ironic as I was still single but I told her to follow her heart and say what is in it with no regrets. It’s either the person takes it or not. No point suffering to cover it as time will eventually reveal it so might as well have it upfront right?
Here comes the worst of the worst. Since I was acting like a drunkard and dead sleepy, I did not know what went into my mind but I sms-ed Mr. MCP that I loved him. It scared the heck out of him. But truthfully he has been such a part of my life that having him leave is like tearing out a very precious chapter of my life. What I meant by I love him is like a brotherly love kind of thing…no romantic notion at all…for now anyway. The future let’s not talk about it…thinking about it is a NO NO k. But I had no time to explain that to him and I was too chicken to do it face to face. All my best friends will kill me knowing what I did. This guy is part of my friends circle. He makes me laugh at the most difficult times of my life. He helps me realize what I really want. He understands my deepest desires and dreams that I am passionate enough to fulfill. We motivate each other to achieve the best. How can one not love a man like that? It’s the affection for a friend so dear to my heart. But I am saddened to know I am not that special to him cuz I am one of the many. Guess that’s what I will always be…average & part of the norm.
