Just realised....BAD is NORMAL!!!
Life has been a blur for me this few days. I will update on it soon but as I was sitting here waiting for those lazy ladies from the bursary to come back from lunch so I can settle my dad's EPF problem I allowed myself a little time into deep thought.
1. No matter what this world would be filled with BITCHes that was born with a silver spoon and everything there is to make the world of normal people like us SUFFER even when they are 10000 feet away...
2. However lucky we think we are...THERE are more people out there that got things a lot easier but then it gives us also a chance to admire those who went up the ladder on their own. NO MATTER how good you think you are...there is ALWAYS someone better. so stay on your toes babe!!
3. Think being a porn star is a low life job...think again...waiters and waitresses in a pub go lower...!!! To the customers anyway. Learn to respect & from their gain great wisdom to the philosophies in life. I know how it feels when people who are EQUAL of you treat you like trash...
4. Death is not an ending but a beginning for a change to those people around them! People say death is constantly on the mind I think people do many things to avoid even thinking about it...
5. Distance makes the heart grow fonder....that is utter BULLSHIT. it just gives the men/women another reason to fool around! But not everyone is that mean
6. Think today has been a bad day....can't wait to show you tomorrow! No matter how hard & horrible a day can be...there will be worse...so stop thinking about it & JUST LIVE IT...it makes matters a lot easier
7. Staying optimistic makes the day look less bad..SO start lying to yourself cause it would be the best thing you did for yourself
8. ALL OF THE ABOVE is true only to my eyes and know what....maybe most of you would agree with me...maybe most of you would not....but REMEMBER THIS...life goes on and keeping our chin up to survive the next day goes a great way in the book of records....all respect to you people out there!!!
Sunday outing!!
I decided it was high time I went to look up on my elder step bro...
Bryan...who so happens to be working for church and I think is not taking good care of himself despite everything. He looks like an old man and he is only 23 years old....GOSH! and *gasp*sadly has chosen PINK colour to be his background...he is on disturbed man!!
So there I was at 2 pm promptly waiting for the bus to go down to KL but the bus I took decided to take a detour to KL Central which I was actually hoping on a stop at the Tun Sambathan monorail. But it was ok...whichever way gets me to the KL Monorail. Anyway, I did a pit stop at IOI mall in Puchong to look at gifts for my him as his birthday was up soon...and trust me he is really using up those birthday wishes fast. So anyway....I got him a book...wishing so hard that he would like it because I did not know his taste in book.
I reached Bukit Bintang at 4 pm....yes the bus ride down to KL takes about 1 hour and a half...SADDENING rite? But it is a very very very good reason to give time to thinking and evaluating life and the story you are weaving! As I was sitting the monorail to Jalan Imbi, I gladly parked my ass down on a seat...which lasted only 5 seconds as at the next stop... a family with little kids came in and I offered it to them. Now, it is at this kind of times that you remember all those oppurtunities for you to offer your seat to the old lady in the bus and the pregnant woman in the LRT which SOMETIMES we did not offer and which we SOMETIMES did....what touched me most and inspired me to continue to do so even when most of the Malaysian shamelessly did not do.....was when there was an old blind lady waiting at the KL monorail at the Hang Tuah stop...while all the others boarding ignored her while he looked lost around...the monorail attendant came out from his station and walked towards the lady and asked her if she wanted to go on...which she refused....BUT BESIDES THE POINT....he helped her while everyone else who was convinient enough waiting for the monorail couldnt...
I give a SALUTE to Malaysia's government enployees which I sometimes insult softly when they are slow in doing stuff.....which most have to admit sometimes there are the lazy ones !!!
As I was waiting for Bryan to arrive...which he arrived 1 1/2 hours later (and that is another story you have to ask him)...I took that chance to go check out a reader's heaven...BORDERS...wonderful place in Time Square...I was looking through the travel books and I learnt 3 things that day...
1. All the good travel books are written by NON-Malaysians who so happen to be mostly foreigners esp. British...and so I observed la
2. Malaysia has so many beautiful places despite how NOT patriotic I am...my first goal...Penang(photo above one of Penang's Beaches...how can you resist not going right?) with its Snake Temples,
Gurney Drive,
Batu Ferringhi,
Botanical Gardens etc. etc.
I need to really travel the whole of Malaysia this year and experience for myself the wonders of what the foreigners say it is
3. China is a beautiful place with lots of wonderful history and know what...Mao Ze Dong was a libarian before he took on his important role in revolutionizing communism in China...
and Shanghai was a place influenced by Western Culture and grew because of it....interesting!!
Mao Ze Dong at his prime
Can't believe he was such a handsome hunk when he was younger!! Mao Ze Dong we are talking bout here.....WOW!!!
Boredom!!
It's a Saturday and I am in Uni. Yes I agree that I do not have a life...but it is interesting to browse through the net to see which articles actually catches my eyes and learn something new today. What did I learn? Men are NOT in control and is governed by their penises...
read your heart out!!! And second things is....hahahah....I finally found another book I want to read....which the cover is soo sooooo sooooooo boring...wonder why I would have ever thought of it...but I think it would make a wonderful present for my dad...for Father's Day!!!
I really can't wait to go back to KK....home...*sigh*. I kind of miss my mom...especially since now everyone is talking bout family as they are all going back to their lovely home. I do not regret not going back earlier as I would be experiencing white water rafting again after so long...and also the flying fox experience in the coming Broga camp...but I dissapointed to see so few people joining...AIN'T it said that ~ the more the merrier!!!
oh ...my new short term goal...TO BE MORE GENTLE.....as people say I tend to be a tad too rough...comes from my many year of close association with men....not as lovers but as buddies! Saddening? I do not think so...its a wonderful experience
Brutal Reality!
Reading books like Grown-Ups by Victoria Glenningdale and How to get Rich by Donald Trump...while on the sidelines observing the lifestyle of the rich and famous Mr. Lim Kok Wing everyday as I work in the coffee house really gives me a downer and BIG BIG BIG reason to be depressed which for now I am so glad that am not there yet!
Well, the 'Grown-Ups' book emphasizes on the true reality where they reveal the many games that men play to get the GIRL that they want. Now, truthfully I agree with the book and the more I read the book, the more my life motto becomes "I HATE MEN!". We gals here all know that men will play all kind of weird and manipulating games just to get us to bed. Now, how saddening is that? And you know what, a man never loves you but lusts for you. Imagine if one day you became ugly....it is too hard to take..for them especially! And there is no such thing as unconditional love...no matter what if a man gives something he must have something in return and most of us here know what it is!!!! Another thing written in a book is that the person you are with might not entirely love you the most but admire another too...this which I believe can be true at time. So why marry? Why commitment? But then again, I do have to confess that sometimes woman play just as cruel games towards men too...wrapping them around their fingers to get stuff...I know of a friend who has a bf that buys her friends iPods and digital cameras for her close friends in return for the favour to help finish her assignments. Boy I wished I had a friend like that sometimes if there is no naggy feeling in my conscience. What is to be of this word love now?
Talking about B-E-A-U-T-Y...our beloved Tan Sri Lim Kok Wing..(I think that is his title anyway)...onlhas beautiful women working for him and even in Donald Trump's book he admits openly of how he admire looks and that is one basis of hiring people besides their brains. Now, I have to admit that I am on the losing side for this and my heart aches that I will never be at an advantage cause I'm just not pretty enough. Why then did God create different levels of beauty if all that people need to survive is one of the highest level? Why not He make life easier by making everyone so/too pretty? And charisma is needed to attract attention...gosh I will die and not survive working life. I am too normal....!!!
As I was talking to a good friend today, she was giving me a few tips about men since I was "unlucky" in this department...hahahah...so anyway she confessed to me that men just hate it when you are smarter than them. Act stupid even though you know you are not dumb! Then why did God give us intelligence especially me when all is needed to obtain love is stupidity? Do not act tough but cute and sweet so that we are the one little dolly to follow their order. This repulses me so much yet I fully understand now why life has been difficult for me in this area. I am too forward...too strict in the ways of life....craving success and being better...and proving I am better everyday yet I never learn...maybe I am born to be flying solo as I have been doing so far. But who is complaining right? I do not want to be bound to the demands of another homosapien which consider me lacking of any sort of knowledge...where would I stand? Where is then the goal in life!!!
Read
this and
this where my good friend shows her strenght in her amazing writing about how "wonderful" the world is...and how she puts all I was trying to say in better constructed sentences!! She is the one person I know that with every word she says (most of them anyway!) I know I will learn something from it/them...and trust me she has the gift of gab....which I know she doesnt over-USE
Party Pooper!!!
Well...first off I would like to apologize for the late entry of this post as I have been trying to put it off for some time. Cause I wanted the best details for it as I am dedicating this to my dear friend Pereira who is now far away in Melbourne *sniff* *sniff* and I miss her so so so much!
We decided to have a dinner party at her place. Lots of good food with yummy buffolo wings from T.G.I.F and a real good friend of her cooking with me being his assistant. Boy...did he make one mean beef strogonof and mushroom soup...from scratch man...no can...amazing!!! Anyway did you know that to make the soup you actually have to BLEND the mushrooms together....2 kinds of mushrooms which I didn't even know existed. Anyway, it was great food and then came alcohol time...for them. But then they decided to drag me in....GREAT I was totally doomed. So anyway they made this weird mixture of chivas and tequila and margarita mix and kahlua and dunno what else la...and they passed it around for everyone to drink. Gosh that was one nice day...needless to say I passed out by the end of the session..not even the end...the starting and I WAS GONE.
I ended up waking at 5 am with them laughing at my stupid sleeping marathon. All I have to say they had hilarious laughs at me hahahaha. Shouldnt have konked off but what is done is done! Anyway, we decided to drive all the way to Mont Kiara to go online...weird but that's what crazy people do. I was to drive for I was the least drunk and guess what...YES you guessed it...I did not know how to drive it. It was in reverse gear and I was flooring the gas but the car did not move an inch. I was an idiot driver or I bribed the driving instructor. Both was wrong I just did not floor the gas enough....let's just say old cars needed more loving!!! hahahaha...
The next day got even better when we decided to go to IKEA to bring her dogs out for a lovely shopping spree. Needless to say her gigantic dog(Duke) and cute little doggie (Chaz) were the center of attention when we entered.(P/S : got to ask Pereira the breeds of her dogs) Apparently we had to use the pets only entry while we confidently took the escallator up from the main entrace. What a sight we were...let me say Duke was as tall as me....!!! Anyway, it was fun seeing the reactions of people so afraid of gentle Duke...good thing Pereira did not say "CHARGE!" and off he goes like Superman...but then Pereira is not that mean kakakakak
Oh ya...I almost forgot. We had this amazing Indian banana leaf lunch that was so good. And I was fascinated to find out that you have to fold the banana leaf inwards to indicate that you liked the food. Fold it outwards and it means the food sucks. Now, that is one lesson in life I really want to learn. Thanks girl for teaching me! Different cultures are so amazing. Oh, I actually got to see for myself how the Indian sweet look like besides seeing them from the Hindi movies I watch where they serve it at weddings. Need to learn more and update myself on the wonderful cultures in Malaysians.....wish me luck!
Time to P.A.R.T.Y!!
I don't know why but I'm just in such a good moood. Maybe it's because the burden of no more assignments is finally gone and I can actually rejoice & really have fun. I know my exams are up soon but so what...I will study....sort of!! *wink*
Been a great past few days of sleepless nights and movie marathons. Now, this is the real life of a uni student. Just relaxing...in between working my ass off at Wings Coffee. Tried a real nice Jack Daniel's steak in T.G.I.F in Subang Parade and walked around in 'Toys-R-Us' to reminise on my beloved missed out childhood. My family was a lot poorer when I was younger so the only toys I had is my darling 'Albert' teddy bear that was a free gift from Pampers , a well-known Malaysia diapers brand. I really wished to have those care-free days like other kids where they climb tree and have adventures at every turn of their life. For me, I took care of the family, cleaned the house and waited for my parents to get back from work. You just got a better glimpse of how I am like now....!!!
I miss a good friend of mine far far away...but I'm glad that he is real real happy there..adapting well as the proud confident guy he is and succeeding in everything he does...DAMN!!! Jealous sial.....
Panic Attack!
Hahaha....I locked my keys in my room this morning as I was going to workout. No wonder I felt so weird closing the door, like something is missing! Anyway, there I was panicking like a crazy maniac when I saw my housemate's boyfriend coming out of his room. I begged him to help but what can he do.....he shrugs & asks me to go down to management for help! Sadly, I went down and those ladies there just laughed their arses off at my misfortune. So, they too couldnt help! I was waiting for a miracle and there I saw my friend. I asked him if he knew how to pick locks and he said let's just see. I was afraid to bring him to my house as my housemates discriminate against blacks which I find is stupid but that is their choice in life. So, while my housemates ask me to break down the door and spend another RM20 for a new lock ...this black dude which they hate uses a cut out piece of a coke bottle and opens it in a jiffy. I laugh out loud with relief and for once I think...kind of an irony if I did not ask for his help due to what my housemates might think!
On the subject of men...remember my post yesterday about men being a dissapointment. I just feel that all the men that are flirting/chasing me are just in it for the sexual desire....or just for the game of chase...if they get a girl then its time for I-lost-interest kind of bullshit. Men make great friends but horrible lovers because IN THIS MODERN SOCIETY they either want sex or just want to play games with you, to show the world what POWER they have over the opposite sex...sometimes even the same sex too(???). How sad can life get? Where would a sincere men who is truly in love with you for who you are NOT what you can offer esp in bed? Sadly, chivalry does not exist anymore....girls can no longer dream of a knight in a shining armour....gentlemen are a rare species! Not to mention...some girls have turned to being mean flirts and tease to hurt nice kind men. What more is there to hope for in this world? People, cherish what you have with you now...if you are the one in the many that has finally found someone good that loves you for what the wonder they see in you!!!
