Epistle of the stars!

Perfectionism....my disaster!

Fi recently typed out an article from the magazine...YES TYPED OUT....and emailed it to me. She was trying without fail to prove to me that I have a serious case of perfectionism. Truthfully I agree with her. It is very hard for me to make decisions at time when I know that if I fail/do not do well....I will really hurt and torture myself over it. For her....she is willing to take a chance...try...and she goes on. For me...the reason is cause it won't be good after if I am not 100% sure it will be.

It's a burden to be like that. Even a sin at times! But you see...I love it in a way. It keeps me top gun. I dunno...it gives me my standards. Maybe its so imbeded in me that no way anyone even myself can pry it out.

I guess now...all I am doing is cherish the everyday as it is. I do not know that by refusing a oppurtunity did I really loose out as that someone has "got over me" or by "not telling" I missed out on the greatest possibilities in life or by "thinking too much" I have lost the great timing as it was appointed

*pause* Got invited to eat siew yuk...YUMMY...my first taste of pork after half a year...hahah

Where was I???

Oh yeah...anyway after a hearty meal...I guess there is no point to talking, blogging and thinking these kind of things. I know I won't change....kaakakka...so I just better enjoy myself this way.

I can't wait for my 5 days of partying....MUAAHHAHAHA....this Christmas...
DAY 1 ~ Office party....hahhaha...with alcohol...can't wait to see drunk bosses and staff
DAY 2 ~ Outing with Fi & Pam...hope I get invited! *pending*
DAY 3 ~ RIKL Xmas party with top organizer in red bikini...a MUST SEE
DAY 4 ~ Christmas Eve - No plans yet..wanna book me??
DAY 5 ~ Christmas - No plans here either....call me k....its a party!!!!

I was thinking of doing something wild....GO DOWN TO SINGAPORE FOR DAY 4 & 5...what do u think?

posted by Orion @ 12:51 PM