Epistle of the stars!

Which is better: to hide or to tell d truth?

Sometimes in relationships, there are certain points and decisions in which decides the turning point of the whole journey. Sadly to say, but everything we do is a constant reminder of the Butterfly Effect movie 2003 and how each and every decision in life will cause a dramatic change in our intended path.

DAMN! Suddenly it is not so fun to learn by mistakes and to follow your heart's desires and see what happens next. Sitting downstairs alone with a small heater adequate enough only to warm my toes, surrounded by my boyfriend's freakish looking miniatures and dishes that is beckoning to be washed...I suddenly am given the opportunity to have wonderful flashbacks on all the moments in which was my "Ashton Kutcher blackout moment".

One thing I remember from the failure of my last relationship was the day I started noticing the skank playing with him. Actually she is not a skank but a really nice girl...but at that moment of time...I hated her. Anyway, from then it was downhill, the trust was gone and the constant fighting not to mention I was tens of thousand miles away. I remember going back to see him after a year, he aloof and high...me sad and distraught...and I remember every word he said on how the failure was caused by the issue that no matter how much he tried I would still be upset every time I called and he was out partying. I could think of all the ways of putting the blame on him...but somehow it was not worth the effort. But somehow that seemed appropriate to be categorized as a butterfly effect moment.

My butterfly effect moment in my current relationship was actually....weirdly...fighting horribly during our first month together. So we put all our cards on the table and gambled our hearts in. But the stakes were too high and we were too important to each other so we carefully worked our way to a win-win situation. When "HE" asked me to tell my parents bout us...I was skeptical...I always believed that ignorance is bliss esp when it comes to my very uptight and protective parents. Don't get me wrong...I love them...but then can get too much for a young rebellious girl like me!

But we...or more he...weighed the options and telling them was the best for our future. And I did...that Sunday....and we survived. My parents were so shocked...they were speechless...a first for them. My mom had the humour to scream out.."YOU GETTING MARRIED" in which got me scolded by my dad once she passed the phone over. Let's just say he assume marriage and no more studying.....kakakaka. One month later...my parents are happy to hear stories bout our crazy working lives together and they joke bout using him as my green card. All in all...I am glad we made a smart decision that somehow was the greatest blessing from God.....not to mention most nerve-wrecking!!!!!

posted by Orion @ 11:31 PM