Too many falls...
There is this malay phrase that goes..."Sudah jatuh, ditimpa tangga" which literally means after falling, the ladder falls upon you. What it really means is that...after one bad thing another follows and it continues on. I am currently experiencing that....after working my butt off to pay for my fees...my tax return did not arrive in time. So I have to grovel and beg my parents back home to help me pay off the rest. They happily agreed with a grunt. But things were finally looking up...I was back in class...working less....and my fees is paid for a semester so I have one less worry.
But then the MONSTER LADDER strikes. Apparently, little idiot me did the tax return wrong or something but I got summoned by the tax department to pay an extra 4k...which was the exact amount of my expected tax return. So I do not know what went wrong. But one thing I do know....hanging from the ceiling with a rope around my neck sounds a lot better than groveling to my parents for more money. But somehow, I seem to be better at groveling. So I had to apologize to my parents for the late delay of the supposed imaginary tax return and I need to track the tax people to see what went wrong, while doing 3 assignments. All on urgent conditions.
Somehow I do not know when all these bad things will end...because for once...I just really need a happy moment...just one! Even my relationship is a little rocky lately....due to only seeing once a week...him busy with work...me busy with assignment, work and horrid things happening to me....
*sigh*
Growing success...
When you read blogs like.....
Mr. Kenny Sia,
Waiter to Writer and
Su's little dream boat. You start to wonder of their success. I have been reading their blogs for a long time...some for about a year...others even more. And I aspire to be like them...to live their dream, to achieve success from a small a thing as blogging. It is wonderful...to watch them grow...get better and finally live out their dream.
One of Su's commentors said...
"The difference between dreaming a dream and living the dream
Is a lifetime spent living the dream out.."
My friend, Vinu, who knows lil cute Su and was the one who introduced her blog to me still sit around the dining table and awe about her talents. We drool over how wonderful she is..how lucky she is and how great she has become. And it struck me....I want to live a life that works at living out my dream. Instead of just sitting around waiting to be inspired by more people....envying their success and hoping my time will come.
The train of thought then flows to my beloved brother. How he started his entrepreneurship days with a decision to be his own boss. He then quits his stable job and starts his own business, living off his savings. Yet in that time....he is the happiest ever. Today, which I think is 2 years down the road, he has his own staff to boss around and a pay large enough to pay off my fees in a one month pay....(mind you...its 3.15 times...RM to AUD)
Truth be told, I never expected it from my bro. Not that he is not smart or talented. It was more because he was such a softie. I always thought myself to be the street smart go getter...because I wasnt a genius...so I lovingly thought God had compensated me with those attributes so I could succeed. Lo and behold, my bro took over and became the businessman of the family. And trust me, even now, I am embarrassed at how I am a softie....looking at the Mr. Overly Soft to Mr. Logically Smart kakakakaka
I should be getting off my bum....and do some dream living...*smile*
(*Yawn*) Maybe tomorrow.......(*wink*)
